Out with the Old.

i'm expecting the worse.

2010-07-02T12:43:00.005+08:00

FUCK.
This is no longer about me, apparently.
It's all about you now.

Ughh, I don't really care anymore.
I'm upset, I'm fucked up, and as far as everybody knows...I'm single.
I'm pissed, cos nothing's turning out the way he promised.
Screw the world, I swear I'm done giving a crap.

I'm not mad because I'm bitter about the whole "I'm leaving you to grow" scene.
I'm mad because everything's becoming worse, and I feel like everything's only a made-up excuse.
I was the one who got left behind, but I'm being pathetic enough to chase.
I'm the one who's hurting, but I'm still being the one who consoles everything.
WTF, I suck. -..-

It's been a month of this and nothing has changed.
Tell me, do you think I still have the heart to go on when there's nothing good to expect?
I'm like waiting blindly for something to happen, but I don't get anything.
So much for having a relationship. Now it's just all about you.

I love my friends. Atleast you guys are always there. ♥

i'm a girl version of chuck bass.

2010-06-24T03:44:00.008+08:00

I just thought this song would suit this post. HAHA. ;]

Just don't listen to it while reading this blog update, it'll probably get annoying. xDD

I'm so over grovelling over him.
It's never healthy, considering I haven't been treating myself well this past week.
Since he wants me to be strong, I'll claim to be.
Wellyeah, I'm still working on it here and there.

Nevertheless, the pain has somehow lessen today.
I guess after crying my heart out to him a few days ago, I've realised how badly I've rotated my world around him.
I've been overly dependent on him that I failed to see that I can stand with my own two feet.
I guess this was the message he was trying to send? I really don't know.
What I know now is that...I can live being alone and independent.

I'm not saying that I like the idea of not having a boyfriend.
I do.....always.
Maybe I'm just starting to realise that being less dependent is not so hard after all.
I've moved on to a more if-you-need-me-then-i'm-here-if-not-i'm-out kind of person.
It's a big step I decided to make considering that's not really me.
I mean I have to admit, I want to be beside him through everything he goes through.
But I guess it's too much to ask from anyone.

Andyeah, who says I can't be happy with other people?
I have awesome friends who makes me feel how awesome I am to have them everyday.
My family loves me and so does my adorable and loving dog, Chester.
I guess I needed Neil to be with me all the time because I only wanted to feel secure.
I wanted to feel like a hug would just embrace me anytime I get enshrouded by fears.
Butyeah, who also says I can't tuck myself to sleep? ;]

I used to think I can't do all these things alone.
But you know what? I'm pretty sure I can now. ;]
I feel stronger and more independent now as ever.
And I think I can totally do this, just you wait and see.
A new me has been born.

give me one minute, please.

2010-06-21T01:00:00.017+08:00

Sometimes the best cure for a tearing heart is not through watching hours of drama.
Neither is it through a pint of icecream (though I still love you Ben & Jerry).
Most of the time, it's simply by blurting it out to someone.
And if there's nobody around, cover your mouth with a pillow and scream.

Butyeahh, in my world we don't do that.
In my world, we keep our mouth shut and we let the rest guide us in what to do.

No, not that I'm making the world judge or control me.
I'm simply letting the world take over, cos I'm fucken tired managing it.
I'm sick of pretending that I can handle everything, cos truthfully I CANT.
I suck, in a justin bieber way.
YES, YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.
I try so hard to make people like me, but I guess I have to lose one way or another.

Kay...
There's no easier way telling this.
But I feel that I have to, since I know my friends would eventually read this and (hopefully) understand.
Neil and I.......

Well, I guess you can say we temporarily broke up.....

As painful as it is seeing myself type those words together, it's true.
It happened a week ago, and I was too embarrassed to tell you guys.
Maybe because we've always been that "perfect relationship" some of you look up to.
Telling me how compatible we are. How we were so meant for each other.
Well...all of those theories are put on hold now.
I ain't expecting him to come back so soon either, likewise am I ready to turn around.
All I need now are my friends.
I'm telling this here because it's too hard for me to tell you guys upfront.
I was planning to keep it till it's over, but I feel that y'all deserve to know what's happening.
Just so you know, I can't take pity talks and long discussions about how "all of this would work out in the end".
Soyeahh, you guys can leave that part out.
When you see me smile or hear me laugh...just be happy for me.
No questions asked.

Andyeahh, I guess it would help if a friend or two would keep me from breaking down.
Being without the same man for a year wouldn't be easy for a few days.
If I decide to walk away, hold me.
If I say that I feel great, look at me and show me that you know I don't.
If I hallucinate for awhile, slap me.
Kay not really, if you slap me I'll slap you back. ;]

..........................

I guess what I'm asking here is just pretend you're happy for me.
As if you never knew I posted this up.
Refrain from speaking his name or asking me how he is.
The last thing I need is a reason to think about him.

I guess this song doesn't apply anymore.
Ohwell, atleast it used to mean something to me.

Anyway...yeah.
I guess that's it.
I'm sorry if I update such a post after 3weeks being gone.

Striking back boredome.

2010-05-29T01:51:00.009+08:00

Kay, since I'm wide awake now I shall blog.

I'm no longer used to being awake past 1:30am.
Being a designer, I should be. I know.
But for the past few days, I've been sleeping around 9-10pm.
Prolly because I'm sick, so ohwell. HEH.

SORE THROAT KICKED IN.
FEVER KICKED IN.
COUGH KICKED IN.
COLD KICKED IN.

One more and I'm seriously kicking someone's balls off.
Coughing and sneezing and clearing your throat in public is so unglam, I swear.
I feel like people got scared to be near me inside the train. Pfft.
Not as if I'm going to transform into a zombie or something.

FUCK L4D2.

Oooh awesome, I typed all that in less than a minute.
What a blabber-mouth I become when it's past midnight.
Well yeah, there are more things that happen past midnight but that's none of your business.

Moving on... *sultry look*

Today we had a studio photoshoot somewhere at Raffles Place.
It was awesome and small...and so much more awesome.
They sell their photos for $160 a pair, so yeah THEY TRIED TO SCAM OUR MONEY.
Luckily the dude offered to give us a softcopy for $45 each, what a moolah-saver.
The next time we're gonna photoshoot, it's gonna be in the school studio.
Where's it's more relaxed...
More enjoyable...
AND (yes, call me malay cos...) IT'S FREE.

Kay, I'm being forced to sleep now.
That was a good 10minutes conversation with you, THIN AIR. -..-
Till next time. *winks

photo spam alert.

2010-05-16T14:44:00.001+08:00

Woaw, this is bad. 3 weeks with no update.
-..- STEP POPULAR, as if people bother to read this.

Kay, where was I?
Oh yeah, I love curry fish head. :]
No, that wasn't what I was talking about.
Screw the randomness.

For the past three weeks, I've been L4D2-ing with the awesomexzxz.
It seems so sinful, since I have truckloads of work to do.
But who else would you call when a witch turns to a bitch?
*sings* GHOSTBUSTERS.
No, Ella. No, it's not cool.

Been doing lots of drinking too, since I'm spammed with May babies.
Zakk in one corner, Neil on the other.
Gene and Fah's birthdays are coming soon too.
It sucks to know that they both also love drinking. -..-
OHWELL, FREE ALCOHOL. (Y)

I'm so Malay, I know. *winkwink*

Yesterday, my family and I went to UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!
Fuck, I swear I felt like I was in America or something.
I had no idea Singapore was so capable of creating something as awesome as this.
I felt like a tourist, buying all their merchandise and taking pictures with the mascots.
AND THEIR RIDES WERE AWESOMEEEEE. :DDDD
I wouldn't mind paying 70bucks to go there for the second time.

I sat on a WHITE wet paint somewhere inside Universal Studios.
Annoying enough, I was wearing BLACK jeans.
Mom JUST HAD TO wipe it off my ass infront of so many people.
Ohwell, I guess it's hot seeing a girl touching another girl's ass.
BUT NOOOOO, the girl just had to be my mom. -..-

i dont need to be famous to be famous.

2010-04-27T23:18:00.004+08:00

WOO I'M BORED.
Well not really, I guess I'm just in the mood to blog.
So what if I'm weird, I don't tell you how to live your life.

Kay, so it's one week without any update.
Pfft, it's not as if people bother to read my insignificant blog anyway.
Btw after one week of school, I've realised that I am fat.

NO SERIOUS, I AM OBESE.

Zip it about my weight being 50kg cos MY TUMMY IS HUGE.
I sat down in my studio chair one day and felt my stomach overlapping my jeans.
OMFG I SAW MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE MY EYES.
Oh fuck it, some random dude just walked passed me holding my photo albums. -..-

So Syai and Zakk are like dragging people to watch Monkey's Paw tomorrow.
Not that I'm interested to watch a play about cursed Ah Meng feet.
But ohwell, I guess it'll be fun too.
I'll be there sipping coke and eating my double cheese burger.
Nomnomnomnomno...zzzzzzz

Kay, forget about me watching Monkey's Paw.
Amirah just told me that we have to do our studio project tomorrow.
SIANZXZXZXZ. Ohwell, anything for a 3.0 GPA.

Sometimes I really feel that school should just fuck itself. :]

ORGY ♥

2010-04-20T22:32:00.003+08:00

Hold on, give me one orgasmic moment...

.
.
.

Okay, let's go. ♥

HAHAHA, fuck it I love it when I'm random. xD
It shows how awesome I am, so come closer and kiss my feet.
No la, I'm not so bad.
BUT SERIOUSLY.

Okay, so today was an awesome dayyy. :D
I finally had my first school-lunchbreak in 2months. Yay mcwings!
Yesterday I had to starve myself till 4pm because the lecturers ate up my one-hour break. -..-
Then we had a debate session for one module which was freaking ELLA.
And I say ELLA, because it's now another term for COOL.
It's kinda like how JUSTIN BIEBER would mean GAY.
Okay, anyway. :D
We argued about how Jack Neo is a total douchebag and should seriously rot in hell.
I can't say my team won, cos both parties were making sense.
And that'd be so JUSTIN BIEBER of me.
*winkwink*
See what I mean, saying something's gay doesn't sound so evil anymore. WEEEE.

Do you know that the symbol of sheep in MSN is (bah)?
So if like there's a fish, it'll be (blopblop) and a parrot would be (bloodyirritatingecho)?
Oh I know! If there's a shark it'd be (tentenenen).
Yeh know...like in horror movies...they play the horror music...
AH FORGET IT YOU'RE LAME.
Cey, look who's talking. Hahahahaha. xD

Welcome to my wallet.
And say hi to that one fairprice sticker i found inside.

fuck it, being random is cool.

2010-04-18T14:16:00.005+08:00

I want to blog, but I don't know what to blog about.
Maybe I should tell you the story about this kid who shit in his pants back in pre-school.
Or some random bus driver who spit outside his window and landed to a nearby car.
Nahhh, that would be too disturbing.
BUT YOU KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT EVERYBODY KNOW WANTS TO KNOW, RIGHT. *winkwink*

Omg, major headache.
I hate tongue twisters.

Okay, so tomorrow's officially the first day of school.
WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY FOR YOURSELF, SP?
You came in the midst of the little kids enjoying booze and getting high.
One of which was the Welcoming Party last thursday.
Another night for the dudes and dudettes to shake what their momma gave them. xD

The party wasn't that awesome, but it's good enough I guess.
Great companion's what it's all about. :D
Sad though that I had to miss Izzat's chalet for this.
Nevermind, I'll make sure to greet you exactly at 12am tonight. HEH.

On the lighter side, MARA'S COMING TO SINGAPORE TOMORROWWWWW! :D :D :D
She's my uber awesome bestfriend since we were 9yrs old.
So yeah, that's *counts*...
*still counting*...
*seriously, I'm trying to count here*...
10 YEARS OF ORGASMIC FRIENDSHIP! Hahaha. :D
Looks like I'm gonna spend a lot during her visit. DARN.

Yeh know, I dreamt that I earned millions of dollars from playing diner dash.
As if diner dash was a reality gameshow. HAHAHA.
Each cent I earn from playing it in my PSP, I earn in my POSB account.
HAHAHA, awesome or what.
Too bad it could only happen in my dreams. xDD

I'm in demand

2010-04-10T20:33:00.003+08:00

It's starting to become a habit of mine not blogging for two weeks.
Caught up with too much fun that I forget, I suppose.
It's kinda like when you see a matrep and you just wanna paint his yellow pants black but you don't.
I really don't know how that links, but it still sounds cool. HAHA. xD

Kay, so I've lost track of what I've been doing for the past few weeks. Hahaha.
Maybe I should remember to pen them down next time.
Blame it all to the weatherman.
I really don't know how that links again but that phrase sounds so awesome. xD
The next time your teacher asks you why you didnt pass up your homework, just say
BLAME IT ALL TO THE WEATHERMAN.
Hahahaha. Fuck it, I'm so random. xD

The only thing I could remember now is our Freshmen Orientation Camp.
Yeah, a new bunch of dudes and dudettes came into our School of Design.
Being a group leader is kind of cool, really.
I made them orgasmic every single night with the camp songs.

"If I were a vampire son, if I were to marry
I would marry a vampire's daughter more than anybody
Cos she can SUCK, I can SUCK, we can SUCK together
In the middle of the night, SUCKING one another".

I KNOW RIGHT. *cheeky face*

Freshmen Orientation Programme's next week, and I can't wait to see new faces. :D
Not to mention, this plan Syai and Zakk has of us performing as a group.
Ohwell, looks like I would have to carry that heavy piece of equipment to school. -..-
I wish guitars could like fold itself smaller like Jimmy Neutron's inventions.

PS/ I love Neil. (yeah, he told me to write it down with this blog post. -..-)

let's do this the phineas and ferb way.

2010-03-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

So the last time I blogged was like 2weeks ago? xD
I was planning to permanently stop since I only have a handful of readers.
'Till I realised that blogging was my only way to kill boredome.
So TADA! I'm bored, thus I'm here.

I know I've mentioned in my last post that I'm gonna keep track of what I do everyday.
But that's sooooo 2 weeks ago *bimbo voice*.
So lemme just highlight some of 'em to cut the crap short.

- 2 weeks ago, I got sick cos of the indecisive weather. -..-
- I went back to school to submit my last holiday project because ~~I love Edwin~~ *pukes*.
- Official commencement of holidays... thus ANOTHER BEER NIGHT. :D
(yeah, I'm gonna post pictures here and there)

- More NEIL TIME, as usual. :]
- More PS3 moments too! Altered Species: Vampire Rain FTW. :D
- Had an awesome stake + lobster + oyster + red wine dinner with family at Mandarin Oriental Hotel because
mom hit the jackpot of earning a $42K worth of commission for topping the sales globally. :D
- Relatives from Phil who happens to own this million-dollar company decided to pay us a visit for a week.
- Thus, if there's money THERE'S SHOPPING! :D :D
- Got my yearly GPA results, and I scored a surprising 3.03! YAY ME!
- Clubbing with my girls at Supperclub. ♥

Holiday's really kicking, I must say.
Partying. Shopping. Fine Dining. Love Making.
What more could a girl ask for?
Okay, maybe an awesome sidekick handphone would put the cherry on top. HEE. :D

organised, i still am.

2010-03-12T23:34:00.001+08:00

Hello bloggie.
Kuchi kuchi koo bloggie woggie.
Kiss my ass, you mofo.

Holiday's been treating me well, I have to say.
Maybe I should keep track of what I've been doing.
Alert me with balancing my time with my different group of friends.
Let's start from last week.

Monday = Went to sleep at Neil's house. Sleep was what I needed at that time.
Tuesday = Went for cheap beers and awesome chicken wings with dumbtards at Cuscaden.
Wednesday = Played PS3 at Neil's place, where he stole my burnout CD. -..-
Thursday = Went to school for some last minute project thing.
Friday to Saturday = Camping!

So basically last week was all boyfriend, beers with friends and school.
Fair enough, I guess.
This week's pretty much similar too.

Monday = Slacked at Neil's place.
Tuesday = Went to queensway with the awesome people then played guitar hero at home till 10:30pm. -..-
Wednesday = Sheesha and beers with the dumbtards at the best place ever, Nabins.
Thursday = Fundraiser cum guitar performace at JVS with Syai. My finger shed blood. -..-
Friday = Crashed Vinitha's friend's birthday party for free food. :D

Pretty adventurous this week, eh? xD
Crashing parties' great when you're broke. HAHA.
If you're wondering who are the awesome people, I now call my poly friends the awesome. xD
Most likely I'll be going for some job hunting next week. *insertpuppyface*
I seriously need some moolah right now, man.
Can't go anywhere without it. BUMMER.

Plus, my sem2 GPA results are coming out soon.
I'm prepared for the worst since Erik came into my life.
He gave me the lowest grade out of my whole batch.
D. A freaking D.
I'll be lucky to even maintain my 3.0 GPA. Pfft.

i could use some nachos.

2010-03-08T00:51:00.004+08:00

I seem to have more time to blog now that it's holidays.
AWESOME KN? I KNOW LO.

I should thank the chinese people for inventing the term 'lo'.
When you talk like this, it's like awesome lo.
HAHAHA. Fuck the world lo.

Yeh know, people nowadays are so psychotic.
If they're not so fucken obsessed with their boyfriend/girlfriend
they're overly bitter about losing them.
Wtf, you guys are so stupid you become entertaining. HAHA.
If you're one of those obsessed folks, STOP IT.
Not unless you want them to cut you like a bitch for strangling them.
And if you're one of those bitter idiots, bloody LISTEN TO YOURSELF.
Face it, you and I know you're not proving yourself any stronger or smarter.

It's ironic how two of my close friends fit in both categories.
Since you both are so fucken insensitive, how about an indirect message. :]

Omg, I'm so bitchy I can cut myself. xD
Now for more zombie killing in my PS3 game.

Talk about HYPER.

2010-03-01T21:56:00.003+08:00

Okay, so it's like OMG school's over.
And then OMG, I'm like finally getting my beauty sleep.
And there was like this stupid bimbo infront of me, OMGGGGGG.

My point is, school's finally over. HAHA.
I didn't get much sleep for the last few days of school. Booooo. (N)
Imagine having 5 MAJOR submissions all IN THE SAME WEEK.
That's worse than having a fat boy snatch your shaker fries.
That's like, OMG.

Kay, stop this OMG thing. I'm creeping myself out.

So yeah, had a good sleep today at Neil's place.
It's kinda funny, cos we were like in the middle of a conversation when I dozed off.
"And the girl in the bus was like so irritati...zzzzzzz"

Which btw brings me back to the story of this girl I saw in the bus.
She was like this ah lien type, GLARING at me when I got in.
Her legs were so open as if there was a watermelon stuck inside her pussy. -..-
A few stops later, she went down.
AND SHE BREEZED WALK LIKE A STUPID PENGUIN.
She was like showing off her big breasts which obviously looked like she stuffed tissues inside.
No joke, I laughed like an asshole inside the bus and a few laughed along.
Our minds telepath-ed like we were bananas in pyjamas.
Awesome shiznitz.

Btw, she tripped after doing her penguin walk.
HAHAHA.
No la.
But that would have been double awesome shiznitz.

I didn't update my blog for 2 weeks, and suddenly I'm talking like a machine.
I missed you mofos, whattodo.
Anyway, WHOEVER IS FREE THIS HOLIDAY BETTER COME AND MEET ME.
Or else I'll tell your momma what you did last summer.
No, go away. I'm not a psycho killer.

when life throws you lemons, shit at their porch.

2010-02-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHA.
Suddenly everyone's protesting on my blog.
You know me loves you guys. x))

I think I'll stop blogging soon.
I'm kinda running out of stories to tell, for some bizarre reason.
Life's getting boring, I guess.
And I've been getting less of alcohol and smokes this past few weeks.
Craving's there, but time won't let.
Oh well.

I can't wait for holidays.
CLUB + BEER + SMOKES = SAY MY NAME, HOTSTUFF.
I'm sooo gonna rock my socks off when that time comes.
But duh, I would need to find a freaking job first. -..-

And I've been smiling to myself quite often this week.
As if I just saw someone pull down his pants infront of me. *hee*
I guess it's entertaining to see an auntie get stuck at the mrt entrance.
Or see a couple of matreps try to act cool to their fellow minahreps.
Hail to them, for they shall give birth to a gang of chihuahuas.

To-do List during CNY:
- Design an eye-catching storyboard concept
- Prepare a presentation for my lifestyle object
- Start up my own business (cos I'm cool and I have millions of dollars)
- Figure out how to decode flash actionscript

Gong Xi Fa Cai.
*plays some jackie chan movie*

now, let's wait for those tags.

2010-02-07T18:45:00.004+08:00

I guess it's only fair that I update my blog.

Idk. Blogging has become boring to me.
Especially that I'm starting to lose my daily viewers.
Maybe I should bitch about them, then they'll come back. *evil laugh*

Sharon? My aunty friend cum wife.
She's older than me by 8mnths but I'm 18cm taller than her. HAHA.
She's the ol' genius in making blogskins.
She also owes me a dinner date. Pfft.

Vinitha? Another one.
She also owes me a dinner date.
No, SHE OWES ME ONE WHOLE DAY OF HER TIME!
She's the java genius, and she hangs out in northpoint more than I do. xD

Ebrahim? GIVE UP AHHH.
Everytime he asks me out, I'm not free.
Everytime I ask him out, he's not free.
HOW TO MEET LIKE THAT, TELL ME?
You owe me a bowling night, plus bubble tea.

Bal? Stress like fuckkkk.
He's working too hard, he's starting to forget to give me hugs.
I'm sad, colour me black and white.

Syai? The boy with the green scarf.
Or was it red? Hahaha.
I was suppose to meet you today!
Nvm, we'll rock Edwin's boxer off with our rummaged presentation.
But first, TAG ME, YOU.

Ann? My only follower who forgets to follow.
You went to MDIS and forgot about your ateeeeee. :(
You come back or I'll hunt you down.
I know where you live, you coral neighbour you. HAHAHA.

Neil? Grrr.
My own boyfriend also don't know how to tag. Pfft.
"I'm not your stalker, babe".
Just tag and be entertaining ahhhhhhh.
Be my daily reader or I'll call you THE ONE BIG BABAT.

Can't say much about Glam, Naz and Faz, cos they recently just tagged me.
YOU GUYS ARE LOVEDDDDD.
Imma give you one big sloppy kiss when I see you. xD

an excuse to skip school, anyone?

2010-02-04T02:33:00.001+08:00

I'm fucken stress now.

Exhibition's in 12hrs, and we're not yet half-done with it.
Models aren't done.
I freaking ran out of black spray paint.
Arrangements aren't done.
AND I FREAKING RAN OUT OF FREAKING BLACK SPRAY PAINT.

Kay, chill.

Hahaha. I can be really random sometimes.
Like adi, who totally cursed the group cos of his temper. -..-
"cb, you guys fucking leave me alone ah".
CLASSIC ADI, CLASSIC.
You don't have to be so fucken anal about it. Pfft.

After exhibition, I photoshoot for Doctor Martens at 6pm.
Woohoo! EXCITED OR WHAT.
First I photoshoot for school website.
Then Teenage Magazine.
Then Metro.
Now a damn cool reason for a pair of boots, DOCTOR MARTENS! :D :D :D
I will rule the world, watch me. Hahahaha.

Hee. :]

Gaga-oohlala. Wanchyorbadromans.

2010-01-30T16:53:00.002+08:00

I am sleepy, sleepy I am.

Had an all-night long birthday party for Farah last night.
Chicken, crabsticks, stingrays and sausages became my bestfriends. Hee.
Stuffed myself till 3am, digested it down before I got home at 8. HAH.
Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN SWEETS!
My wish for you is don't grow any taller or Iskandar won't be happy. xD

Full moon last night.
Me: Most of the accidents happen on full moon.
Neil: A lot of people become horny on full moon.
Me: Wtf. accident + horny = so does that mean I'm gonna get pregnant tonight?!
HAHAHAHAHA. Don't worry, I'm still baby-less. xD

Kay, pictures.

$%@! to feelers.

2010-01-26T23:30:00.001+08:00

I deserved your sorry "kiss and hug" and you deserved mine too. :]

Oh well, things are all better now.
It was the toughest week for me, I have to admit.
Fortunately, that little jimmy neutron in me had a brain blast to fight back.

"Jimmy neutron", I meant my thinking mind.
Not a big pile of hair. Eew.

There's this dude who thinks that I like him, so he tries his best to make me jealous.
LIKE WAKE UP, DUDE. Seriously. -..-
You're cool and all, but i'm so not digging you as anything more than a friend.
It's funny when you try hard to flirt with one of my closest friends.
Cos your face paints expectancy that I'm gonna go slash myself from jealousy.

Puh-lease.

I've been virus-ed by horny little bitches in MSN.
Strangers adding me and going "I'm 21/f, you're a male right?". PFFT.
First of all, do I look like I grow beard and mustache to you?! Roar.
And second, I'm so not into this cyber whatevershit.
Those days were over when I left IRC and Friendster. xD

Kay, laptop's running out of batt.
I'm lazy to plug in the charger.
Nites. xD

an emo post, beware.

2010-01-24T04:02:00.005+08:00

I know I don't have time to blog, but I need to vent out.

I have been crying almost everyday this whole week.
Different reasons everyday.
I'm beginning to doubt on how strong of a woman I am.
Nah, maybe I'm not even strong to begin with.

Ever been in this situation...
You were in so much stress, and you only wanted to talk to someone about it.
And in normal circumstances, you look for the one you're closest with.
In the middle of venting out your feelings, he/she says he/she wants to go off.
Wouldn't it be normal for you to have this immediate feeling of sadness and lonely?
Wouldn't it normal to feel sad when someone leaves you on your moment of need?
And because you show what you felt when they decide leave, does that mean you're being selfish
because "you start to make him/her feel bad to stay"?

I show what I feel, cos that's who I am.
But I definitely won't force you to listen if you can't/don't want to.

Quarrel comes in.
Tears comes out.
And then you start to think back, "where did I go wrong?".
It's becoming a sin to show your feelings.
Maybe we all should learn to hold it back and keep it to ourselves.
Yes, no matter how hurtful it may be.

you can just kill me now, yes.

2010-01-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

*minahrep voice*
Stress la siooooooool.

Kay, so I'm down with 15 pages for the weekends.
Can I do it? No. But I have to.
Other than that, I still need to do my A1 presentation board.
AND do the finishing for my clay model.
AND finish 6 more pages of my storyboard. -..-
Here's a gun, pull the trigger.

Kay, I sound like a little boy running out of mee goreng.
This panicking must stop.

I'm tired from thinking how to manage my time with all these projects piling up.
I need a break, I need a kitkat. -..-
Okay lame, whatever. I have no energy to make anyone laugh right now.
But I'll laugh anyway cos I managed to fix the letter "A" in my keyboard.
hAhAhAhAhAhAhAhAAAAAAAAAAAA.
Yes, it makes me happy like seeing an uncle drop his fake set of teeth.

A.

I'm starting to get irritating, aren't I? xD
I'll be cutting my hair tomorrow after a yearrrrrrr!!!
Say goodbye to my long long rapunzel hair. :((

This one's a fresh shot, just merely a minute ago. HAHA.

i ent breet.

2010-01-17T14:53:00.007+08:00

Damn this blocked nose, I can't speak properly.
My title's how I say "I cant breathe" with all the mucus in my nostrils.
Yes, my flu is that horrible. -..-

Year-end projects has got to be the worst.
I know we don't have exams and all, but now I wish we do.
Exams = Lesser projects. Grr.

I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS, GODEMMIT!
Yes, that includes you!
My social life's slowly crawling out of my system cos of school.
Missed out clubbing with Ebrahim.
Missed out shopping with Vinitha.
Missed out drinking at Neil's.
Missed out dinner dates with Glam & Ciej.
I can't wait for this term to end then I'll be rocking the world.

No Sharon, I don't remember your birthday's on the 19th.
I also don't remember that it's 2 days from now. :]

YOU BETTER CELEBRATE AND INVITE ME AH.
Teck Lee, don't be selfish and drag my wife away from me.
I buy ice from different brand then you know. xD

HAHAHA. This was like on your 15th birthday sia.
Look at my phone, the most retro of all. 6610i. HAAHAHHAHA! xD

Holidays' coming in 6 weeks, and I need a kerja.
Kerja sia, like I'm some 30yr old woman who needs a serious job. xD
But seriously, I need to find myself a good-paying workplace.
Then I can earn buckeroos and go beach-hunting from Bali to Thailand to Philippines! :D

Gues who's back, back again.

2010-01-14T01:08:00.001+08:00

I disappeared for more than a week with no taggers.
Now, I come back with 6 taggers.
Maybe I should MIA more often. :D

No Faz, I'm so not gonna take away my spongebob badge. HAHA.
Keep playing till your head becomes as big as squidward's nose. xD

Yesterday's been the first time this month I came home early.
All of the people in the house made so much noise about it.
Mcm I turned into a vampire and have to cave in from sunlight.
"Eh, isn't it only 6:30pm? Why are you home?"
"Why did you come home so early? Sun's still up, you know"
WTF. They might as well tell me to get out of town. -..-
No, I came home to sleep my ass off.
Ever get the feeling you slept too much you feel sleepy?
Yeh, that's why. xD

DEMMIT, KILL ME NOW.
Workload's too much to handle, fuckenmootahfucker.
I have like 4 pages of rendered sketches and clay model to finish by Tuesday.
AND 50 pages of sketches to finish by Thursday.
My spongebob pencil's going to break soon if this sketching doesn't stop.

Yes, my pencil's spongebob too. xDD

Kay, time for some entertainment.
This was what I submitted as a project for one of my module

Yeh, I have a bunch of dumbtards as friends. xD
Oh well, I still love them anyway. :]

don't ever expect a decent update.

2010-01-05T00:23:00.003+08:00

I took this, mind you. Google Images are so over-rated now. xD

No one bothers to read my blog anymore.
I is sad. :(

Stupid sharon, never tag.
Stupid vinitha, never tag.
Stupid ebrahim, never tag.
Stupid bal, never tag.
Stupid syai, never tag.
Stupid glam, never tag.

Kay, I'm done whining for today.
Now it's your job to stop me permanently. HAHA.

For some reason, blogging is my source of happiness.
I was just in an off mood before I began writing all these shiznitz.
Now I'm all hyped up and Ella-ed again. xD
Oh well, I guess there are just some things that are not meant for people to understand.
Like how Spongebob gets jelly from a jellyfish.
Or like how Aerosmith has a huge-enough mouth to fit 5 cocks.

Kay, off-mood's hitting me back again.
But I refrain from talking about it cos this would turn out into an emo post.
All I can say right now is,

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*poooft* I just farted. :]
P.S. Credits to Sharon for my spongebob blog icon. :D

Since last year, I was hungry.

2010-01-03T04:20:00.002+08:00

I guess what Syai said was true.
After you've abandoned your blog for too long, you lose interest.
Ah, for the sake of the memories.

Kay, so hello 2010. :]
Another set of bullshits, fun and beers. Hoorah.
I should be welcoming the new year like the others do: RESOLUTIONS. Pfft.
But nah, I don't believe in it.
You say you'll stop watching porn, but eventually you still do.

I'm starting to miss people a lot more than I used to.
I won't be so secret-y and go "you know I'm talking about you".
Cos basically, I MISS EVERYONE I HAVENT MET FOR THE PAST 6 MONTHS OR MORE.
I've been losing connection to my closest friends the past 2009. :(
You asses better show your faces before I hurt you real bad you cry. HAHA.
Seriously.

To end this post, I'm screwing up 20% of one of my module.
Congratulate me. Imma repeat it next school year.

P.S. TAKE NOTE OF MY NEW SPONGEBOB BADGE!!!! :D :D

random, here we go!

2009-12-23T03:07:00.030+08:00

"Eh, I saw you in Teenage Magazine!"

Geez. And here I thought no one bothers to read that stinkin' mag.
Suddenly everyone's telling me that they saw my two-page premier.
Holy cow, that was embarassing. -..-

I'm 18 and I've conquered the world.
Nahhhh.

Brothers are finally here from Phil, and they have invaded my room.
One is sharing my blanket, and the other one stole my pillow. FML.
Atleast I have something to blackmail them with if they dare to bully me.
HUAHUAHUA. :}

Don't yeh find that laugh kind of funny?
How is huahuahua suppose to sound like in real life?
Hoowahoowahoowah.
Maybe it's some secret chant to bring Ah Meng back from the dead.

Peter piper picked a peck of pickled pepper.
She sells sea shells by the seashore.
Okay, WHAT THE HELL am I doing? xD
I need some entertainment.
How about you fall off a two-storey building, bump into a tree full of big ants, get knocked down by a car, get yourself electrocuted, listen to the whole album of backstreet boys/nsync/hannah montana till your ears fucken bleed, watch
your mom eat the last piece of kuih, run down a naked man, shave all your momma's back hair, set your house on fire.
Then cry. xD

HAHAHA. I just lost it. STOP.
I owe this blog pictures from my Monday's beach trip.

It was so fun watching the train travel in the tunnel, I tell you. xD

people should love the word "orgasm".

2009-12-20T22:34:00.003+08:00

After reading Syai's blog, I think I'm screwed.
I DIDNT KNOW WE HAD SO MUCH HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS, WTF.
I guess there's a reason why they put "ass" in the beginning of the word.
Cos it's definitely a pain in my anal.

I think I've played too much L4D, that I'm starting to dream about it.
I was like James Bond in my dreams, shooting the hell out of the zombies.
It was as fun as seeing an auntie get stuck at the MRT entrance.
I wish the dream never ended, demmit.
But not waking up at 2pm is a crime. Atleast for my mom.

So I'm going idle from L4D for awhile and concentrating on Sims 3.
Lame right, I know. BUT MY HOUSE IS SO SEXY LA.
All it needs now is a sexy bunny outfit.

Even my sims agrees with meh.

There's no fun without getting your sims pumped up. xD

I won't printscreen every room in the house cos that'll flood my blog.
I wouldn't mind doing that though cos pressing PrtSc is so gay-ishly fun. xD
I'm so happy with my house, I could give Mariah Carey a nipple cripple.
Or maybe I should give someone one sloppy THIS

Having sims make out is so entertaining. xD

i still love myself, go away.

2009-12-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

I swore to myself I'll never go to fucken mini toons ever again.
Until I saw my boyfriend sitting at the most top shelf of the store.

No, not Chester. I bought him from a pet store. xD

Yeh, mom bought me PATRICK STAR! :D :D :D
Call me kiddy, but I totally dig this pink starfish.
Who else could pull off a lime green shorts with purple flowers other than him?
He so sexy, me wanna strip him down *gives a kinky face*. HAHA.

I just realized that everyone else except me finds my jokes kind of traumatic.
Like when you listen to it, you feel like you're going to die any minute.
Or alteast, you wish to. Pfft.
MY JOKES ARE HILARIOUS, AND YOU KNOW IT.
Okay okay, here's one.
What did the elephant say to the naked man?

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.

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How the hell do you breathe through that thing?
HAHAHAHA.

Okay lame, whatever.
I'll run away and slit myself now.

if you don't like fastfood, screw you.

2009-12-16T23:17:00.003+08:00

I'm getting really good with L4D yo.
KISS MY ASS.

My L4D 2 keeps on crashing, so I'm kinda ignoring it now.
Besides, the zombies look like they don't know how to eat a burger well.
They better lay off the tomato sauce, I tell you.

Finally school's finally out. Like FINALLY.
Imma rest for the entire week till my brothers come back from Phil next Tuesday.
SHAKER FRIES. GUITAR HERO. SENTOSA. MORE SHAKER FRIES. :D
I've eaten way too much seaweed, I'm turning into a mermaid.
I think I need to get my seashell bra done fast. xD
But nothing to hide also knnnnnnn! -..-

I'm insulting myself, screw you.
Go away before I call mojo jojo.

Be scared. Be very scared.

call me a freak, whatever.

2009-12-13T02:11:00.008+08:00

Sorry, but I just can't get over it.
This has been the first time it's happened to me.
After months of playing

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I'VE FINISHED THE WHOLE GAME OF L4D IN AN HOUR

WITHOUT DYING EVEN ONCE.

Kay, so what if I'm a loser.
Atleast I've already won before you can call me that.
I STILL HAVE SOMETHING TO BRAG ABOUT.
So not completely a loser. xD
Shut up, you.

if i were you, i'll be jealous.

2009-12-12T14:11:00.003+08:00

Escape theme park should just bulldoze itself.
Universal Studios would shut you guys downnn.

This week has been hell week for me cos of school.
Syai agrees with me, i know *smugs*.
Sleepless nights, jugs of coffee and bars of toblerones are my bestfriends again.
Ahhh, it never gets old.

Finally met up with my long-lost-friends-for-3mnths last night.
Dinner at Hoagies and bowling. :D
Kay, I missed the bowling. Made us wait for 20 people in the lanes wtf.
And I had to catch the last bus home. -..-
Oh well. If only you paid for my cab fare, Benny boy. xD

Today, meeting the Rejects.
Dinner at Swensen's and then my house party. YAY!
But before all that, I would have to buy my mom's birthday present first.
I'm 18, and I'm buying her a TV. -..-
That's cool like how scooby doo eats his scooby snacks. xD

Kay, I'm off to shower.
Don't talk so much, I know you bathe late in the afternoon too.

L4D 2 IS THE SEX.
Random. :]

Papa-paparazzi.

2009-12-06T21:15:00.004+08:00

What's wrong with bangla and handrails?
Can't they find it? GEEZ, PEOPLE.
No, it's not the pole that's on top of you.
It's the pole INFRONT of you. -..-

Kay, I'm done hating banglas. xD

Tried to bake cupcakes today.
EPIC FAIL.
It looked like it came out of my maid's fat ass. Pfft.
Nevertheless, it was still edible.
Shut up, you. I haven't baked for months. Grr.

Am I the only person in this world who hates Lady Gaga?
All her MVs are like someone's electrocuting her pussy.
I bet her make-up artist is a hater too. HAHA.
No offence to Rico. xD

Btw, I'll be having sort of an open house on Friday and Saturday.
BOOZE AND CIGGIES ARE WELCOME, just provide your own.
I'm broke, demmit. -..-
Food? GET YER OWN.
My fridge's only for myself, shoo. xD
So yeh, if you wanna come just lemme know.
I'll provide the movies, games, bed, and a huge container for you to throw up in. :]

Oh, you wanna see a sneak preview of me in Teenage magazine?
Staff sent me a copy. HAHA.

You can click on that to enlarge.
That's just the first page. There's two. xD
The issue's coming out in the middle of December, so make sure to buy.
Don't waste the time I posed for that mustached photographer.

out with the old.

2009-12-05T18:23:00.012+08:00

YAY! New blog. :D
New skin toooooo! I LOIKE.
I'm thinking of adding music, but kinda lazy.
Oh well, suck your balls and die.

Nothing much to blog at the moment, really.
It just feels good to be far away from ~~stalkers~~.

Sal just called me up to meet at Woodlands.
Then Sheng Wei called right after to remind me on my powerpoint.
Chill...? Work...?
DEMMIT. I need someone to strip down infront of me now.
I don't know how that'll help, but just do it. xD